When I was too tired of the good stuff which had been happening for quite some time. I had no choice than to be alone and resting all of my heaviness on a wooden reclining chair. Once again I surrendered but for real this time. (wait, lol, what a funny word.. For “real” this time… Hahaha)
I decided to dedicate myself to walk through this path once again. No matter how heavy and weary I can be until my time comes, I’m going to let go all of this mass.
I had been ignoring parts of nature and nature as a whole. That day, I opened myself and acknowledge myself as a part of whole. The dark sky seemed like a blank slate, another fresh start also a companion. It didn’t ask, judge or else.. The night breeze was enveloping me with cold air however it felt comforting to the mind.
I’m still practicing every now and then throughout several situations, still underestimating, falling, failing, dwelling, suffering but I’m always retiring in myself as Teacher guides me to.