I don’t like this, being far away from you..
Either I’m sad or flat, I want to see you
Hopefully this wouldn’t be a burden to you
I can’t sleep and have tried to distract myself
I am in disbelief, really, knowing that living in Surabaya is as miserable as in Mtp.
You matter so much
I can’t lie, I hate holidays now
I want you to be happy wherever you are but I’m sorry I can’t be cheerful
Crying is like laughing now, it is the natural response. My body feels cold yet hot tears are flowing fast. I try to salivate properly so that my lips won’t be dry. I hear myself crying loudly.
My days are not great but they are beautiful with you
Now, they are just worse