By : Lia Agustine

#2’s Feelings

“Would.. Would you… Be in a committed monogamous relationship..With me?”

Like a sheer of goose bumps.

The cold wind came as sharp as ice cubes.

I know my face is frozen right now and my hand is stiff on her hold.

“I…” struggle on my sentence, obviously… I don’t want to hurt her feelings after all she was everything to me. But it is just not enough. I’m scared! I’m scared to lose her that’s all what I can think about! She is home, she is everything, everything!

#2 couldn’t continue her sentence and started sobbing, her shoulders moved up and down with such tension.

She (#3) just realized it right away, pat, gently caressed her (#2) like what she had done for the million times. “It’s okay.. I understand…” #3 softly said though she was hurt by the fact of #1’s accurate prophecy, #2’s rejection, her own delusion and high hope.

#2 grabbed #3’s top tightly while kneeling down as if asking for forgiveness furthermore begging for the eternal kinship (?).

#2 looked up to her with teary eyes, like a lunatic with blurry vision and received her positive response by #3’s kiss on her forehead. Finally, she was able to simply close her eyes, smiling so widely like being embraced by an angel.

How I wish to be looked at the same way as #1 gazed her (#3) with full of spark on his eyes, that fixed admiration.

She (#3) was like the warmest person on earth.

How can I compete with that??

This jealousy is inappropriate thinking of how much she has been given me, —given us. But how do I supposed to resist the idea of my perfect life in sync with the conformity. I want to have a big family, with a husband and more than one kid, I want all that. I want everything. . To be normal.

Read the first post here.

And the second post here.

About Lia Agustine

Hi, I'm Lia Agustine, an independent Oriflame consultant. If you wanna know more about Oriflame, ask me anything in the Contact Me menu in my homepage.

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