Today I’m happy.
Not in the peak of my energy.
Not because of beautiful physical stuff.
Today I met someone, there was something from what she said that intrigued me. She said that his father must’ve wanted a daughter like me because I told her I was interested on this bird’s nest business unlike her… She said it was because I wanted to pursue my passion in the business, unlike her.
I’ve never thought of anything like it before. And I am starting to believe her, to believe that her words are everything, are all the answers to my questions. All of these self-doubt and confusion… She answered them all by our first talk in this lifetime.
I am passionate of having a business of my own. The bird’s nest seems so sparkling on my hands although it’s dirty. I always think of school and good grades are utter nonsense. I’ve always wanted to make money as soon as possible.
I shared to her of my rocky driving experience, the insults, the mocking and car crashes. Then, she simplified all that by saying that I’m a truly positive person. Yes, I am.
In fact, I stop trying to be positive instead I am a positive person. It’s my strength.
I don’t know when was the last time I had a long chat with my Dad but it happened today. I knew about his past jobs, income and expenses, I started to know the more precise number of my Dad’s money and all that.
My chat with that new friend whom I wasn’t intend on keep in contact with though she played a big role today in building my realization that :
a. All I wanted to be is here, in Sby with my Dad
b. I want to be respected and that’s why I’m motivated to be successful in my career
c. I want to have a business, start making money
d. there is a brilliant reason behind my dislike of school, I want to work, work, work
e. I am fascinated by wealthy successful brilliant people not the ones who are employees
f. I’m a positive person, I admire Maya Kitajima and Kim Tak Gu
Thank God, my Dad actually cares of my passion, he wants me to find what I love to do, what are my thoughts, gives me control of making decisions in my life, encourage me to have the security in life.