The relationship between he and I has been getting distant since… I don’t know, I’m not sure.
Since I had a change of hobby? From playing in the playground (is this even a hobby??) to computer games?
Since I chose to secretly watch TV passed my bedtime?
Since I had my own desk in my bedroom?
Since my teenage years perhaps? When my Dad said I weren’t cute enough like the little girl I used to be?
Since I became a 1-year vegetarian&vegan?
Since I became a young adult and apparently according to him, I couldn’t drive.
I’ve had twice driving lessons of Japanese cars and my Dad’s was an European car.
I suck at driving & he just keeps mentioning my failure over and over again.
There was the time that I’ve been asking him to teach me again yet he refused. I brought up the motorcycle alternative, still, he refused. Seriously, I felt like facing a dead end.
It spreads into these topics of career.
Do I have a dream (career)? What will I do next? How can I work without driving? How does my major in college help my personality?
Often we end up not talking because maybe we are just running out of (positive) topics.
I was used to be scared of him but since I gained my autonomy, I realized more of his disappointment of me rather than a frightening scolding.
I’m pretty scared I would regret how much time I’ve wasted of not getting to know my Dad, but I really don’t know how to fix or improve this relationship with him. Sometimes I wish to be able to read his mind.
Some days are great for us, we bond by seriously rare warm conversations.
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